grinding her teeth together
catching her tongue in her anger
growling
ferocious
feral
resigned
her heart from love
condemned into hate—
bitter enclosing darkness
surrounding
every sensible way of escape
a cry—
desperate
longing hidden deep
beneath the many layers
she covers herself
could be it him
the darkness now shines
with pinpricks of stars—
the moon singing
seemingly innocent lullaby
blood runs hot
straight into the open
waiting jaws of temptation
snarls and screams
devour once peaceful air
struggling to gain freedom
“meet me in the morning”
he calls
on divine white sands
under a cheerily glowing sun
the day turning darker
as she cries
shrinking away
from a corpse—
not his
though it should have been
innocent pale stained
with unforgiving crimson
forever raging between heart and head
black ink
leaking
across helpless and disheveled paper
cast out
with the burden
bore upon
her
desecrated heart
and
weeping mind
soul waiting
eternally
for it all to end
the fire
to no longer burn
to be quenched
by calming waters
truth
denial
anger
best suiting
her weary body
for the time being
she grits her teeth
catching her tongue
tasting blood.
horror
watching in horror. loving every minute.
your shy eyes, thick hair, warmth.
enticing, baiting a fish in cool
water to be drawn from
safety to be lain out to die—waiting
to be gutted. why does this happen?
who deserves to be treated this
way? swallow past the lump in my
throat, the fire in my chest,
ice in my veins; tremors in my mind,
heart, my soul. being in existence
pains me without you, devours
me when i’m with you. sweet
cleansing rain does not remove
the stain that is upon me now.
raging waters cannot quench the
flame that burns within me
eternal. stars dance along with
us, twirling forever in your eyes
at the edge of my periphery.
sunlight spills across the quiet,
disturbing ferocious demons
who enfold helpless victims
in their lustful song. clouds
a soft pillow to rest the
weary, useless bodies. hunger
in dreams in waking, haunting
the edges of reality with
tainted surrealism. velvet, silk,
temptations, dancing shadows
barely out of reach. longing, lust,
denial, husks of deeper emotion.
loving every minute of fighting a
tantalizing temptation. watching in
horror as i begin to lose an eternal battle.
gliding
gliding across the water. phantom
of my being, want of well-being, mind
endlessly running in specter circles.
close my eyes, i can smell you, taste,
feel you. go away. i want no longer
for you to haunt me, gliding
effortlessly into my thoughts. crashing
like a derailed train. leave. on
a boat, on a plane, car, whirl through
the world at the edge of my periphery.
don’t leave. i can’t breathe, live,
love without you. no one to dance
with under a chapel of holy hosts.
Moonlight pouring over you, onto
me; distant sound of the tide.
warm breath, hand on my waist,
the other…my hand in your hair,
lips locked with yours, tongue not
my own anymore. stop doing this
to me, you drive me absolutely
insane, blood on fire, wanting every
last inch of you. don’t i have
to leave, if you won’t, i will, on
a boat. gliding across the water
effortlessly.
away from you.
of my being, want of well-being, mind
endlessly running in specter circles.
close my eyes, i can smell you, taste,
feel you. go away. i want no longer
for you to haunt me, gliding
effortlessly into my thoughts. crashing
like a derailed train. leave. on
a boat, on a plane, car, whirl through
the world at the edge of my periphery.
don’t leave. i can’t breathe, live,
love without you. no one to dance
with under a chapel of holy hosts.
Moonlight pouring over you, onto
me; distant sound of the tide.
warm breath, hand on my waist,
the other…my hand in your hair,
lips locked with yours, tongue not
my own anymore. stop doing this
to me, you drive me absolutely
insane, blood on fire, wanting every
last inch of you. don’t i have
to leave, if you won’t, i will, on
a boat. gliding across the water
effortlessly.
away from you.
Parting is such Sweet Sorrow
she holds her head between
her hands, letting grief bend
her neck and sorrow drain
her mind of once happy memories.
she let’s the tears
forge a trail
down her cheek. Slowly the
happy memories begin to eat
away at the darkness that had
been slowly devouring her
a beach. soft and sandy. the sky.
clear and blue. an ocean.
made of Dreams and Desires. facing
the sky, only ever seeing what
the sky sees. the air, thick
and warm. clouds her nostrils with
his scent. he reaches towards her.
hesitates.
abandons his attempt. she senses
his desire. smiles.
reaches. towards him.
puts, her arm in his.
the sea only ever sees
what the sky sees.
she cradles her head on his
chest. breathes him in. soft smell
of pine and lavender.
she smells clean. and of vanilla.
the tide comes in. goes out.
the sun is warm.
clouds.
he wraps his arm around her
waist. a shiver. delicious
shiver. pulls her closer. they stop
walking
pulsing. pulsing. pulsing. breathing.
pulsing. their hearts together. the water.
pulsing. a wild beat. so natural. like breathing. dancing.
pulsing. two hearts intertwining into one.
they kiss. fire dances in their veins. ice freezes the fire. forever burning.
the sea only ever sees
what the sky sees.
passion sashaying in
peacock colors.
TIME
IS RUNNING
OUT.
desperate breaths of air.
pulsing. pulsing. pulsing. breathing.
strangled whimpers as they
continue to hold one another
and kiss.
urgent nee to be together. they pull closer. sparks ignite and fly
through the air.
they fall to the ground,
into the surf.
the water pulls them into its
primitive beat, enticing them
to join its wild dance.
the sea only ever sees
what the sky sees.
hands. everywhere. to stop. to
invite. to play. to work. to love.
to stop.
pulsing. pulsing. pulsing. breathing.
loving.
crying.
he slowly
pulls away.
smiles.
she licks her lips.
smiles back.
her smile fades. she sits up.
suddenly.
he loses balance.
falls off.
confused looks.
i can’t. spoken, thought. regretted.
the sea only ever sees
what the sky sees.
love, understanding. takes her hand gently.
i understand. whispered. meant.
pulsing.
pulsing.
pulsing.
breathing.
parting.
sweet sorrow.
she cries. cries because she’ll never see him again.
her love lies in an eternal sleep.
her hands, letting grief bend
her neck and sorrow drain
her mind of once happy memories.
she let’s the tears
forge a trail
down her cheek. Slowly the
happy memories begin to eat
away at the darkness that had
been slowly devouring her
a beach. soft and sandy. the sky.
clear and blue. an ocean.
made of Dreams and Desires. facing
the sky, only ever seeing what
the sky sees. the air, thick
and warm. clouds her nostrils with
his scent. he reaches towards her.
hesitates.
abandons his attempt. she senses
his desire. smiles.
reaches. towards him.
puts, her arm in his.
the sea only ever sees
what the sky sees.
she cradles her head on his
chest. breathes him in. soft smell
of pine and lavender.
she smells clean. and of vanilla.
the tide comes in. goes out.
the sun is warm.
clouds.
he wraps his arm around her
waist. a shiver. delicious
shiver. pulls her closer. they stop
walking
pulsing. pulsing. pulsing. breathing.
pulsing. their hearts together. the water.
pulsing. a wild beat. so natural. like breathing. dancing.
pulsing. two hearts intertwining into one.
they kiss. fire dances in their veins. ice freezes the fire. forever burning.
the sea only ever sees
what the sky sees.
passion sashaying in
peacock colors.
TIME
IS RUNNING
OUT.
desperate breaths of air.
pulsing. pulsing. pulsing. breathing.
strangled whimpers as they
continue to hold one another
and kiss.
urgent nee to be together. they pull closer. sparks ignite and fly
through the air.
they fall to the ground,
into the surf.
the water pulls them into its
primitive beat, enticing them
to join its wild dance.
the sea only ever sees
what the sky sees.
hands. everywhere. to stop. to
invite. to play. to work. to love.
to stop.
pulsing. pulsing. pulsing. breathing.
loving.
crying.
he slowly
pulls away.
smiles.
she licks her lips.
smiles back.
her smile fades. she sits up.
suddenly.
he loses balance.
falls off.
confused looks.
i can’t. spoken, thought. regretted.
the sea only ever sees
what the sky sees.
love, understanding. takes her hand gently.
i understand. whispered. meant.
pulsing.
pulsing.
pulsing.
breathing.
parting.
sweet sorrow.
she cries. cries because she’ll never see him again.
her love lies in an eternal sleep.
walking
walking,
with the sun at
my back and
the water at
my feet,
I wish that
we could
go back,
and just be.
But you shall
always
like the
shadow
at my feet,
Only ever be
a memory,
Only ever
a dream.
Hello Again Friend
Hello to you
Who has been gone
For what seems to
Be so long
I wondered
Where you went
I wished I could’ve spent
Some more time with you
Oh my friend
I’ve missed you so much
Surely it’s time
To see you again
Hello to you
Who’ve cut me deep
You will ever haunt
Me within my sleep
I thought
About you
And wished
For me and you
Some more time
To smile and laugh
For surely it
Can wash away the chaff
That’s been here
So long
Ever since you’ve
Been gone
Hello to you
Oh my friend
I’ve missed you so much
It’s time to see you again.
Who has been gone
For what seems to
Be so long
I wondered
Where you went
I wished I could’ve spent
Some more time with you
Oh my friend
I’ve missed you so much
Surely it’s time
To see you again
Hello to you
Who’ve cut me deep
You will ever haunt
Me within my sleep
I thought
About you
And wished
For me and you
Some more time
To smile and laugh
For surely it
Can wash away the chaff
That’s been here
So long
Ever since you’ve
Been gone
Hello to you
Oh my friend
I’ve missed you so much
It’s time to see you again.
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hello once more
I haven’t seen You
since You last went through that door
I’ve missed You so much
Your eyes and Your laugh
Your smile and Your touch
it’s been a while
much too long
since I last saw You smile
You are my sunshine
expelling the nighttime
show me Your light—
Your bright beautiful smile
I’m not sure about
where You went
why You left me out
but all I know now
is that You’re back
don’ t bother explaining how
the storm has gone
and now the sun is shining
so that We may continue on
You are my sunshine
expelling the storm time
show me Your light—
Your bright beautiful smile
take my hand
let’s go together
and leave all this behind
take my heart
my mind, my soul
and let’s just go.
it’s been too long
I’ve missed You so much
where You were I don’t care
just please stay here
You are my sunshine
expelling the storm time
show me Your light—
You are my sunshine
expelling the nighttime
show me Your light—Your bright beautiful smile.
I haven’t seen You
since You last went through that door
I’ve missed You so much
Your eyes and Your laugh
Your smile and Your touch
it’s been a while
much too long
since I last saw You smile
You are my sunshine
expelling the nighttime
show me Your light—
Your bright beautiful smile
I’m not sure about
where You went
why You left me out
but all I know now
is that You’re back
don’ t bother explaining how
the storm has gone
and now the sun is shining
so that We may continue on
You are my sunshine
expelling the storm time
show me Your light—
Your bright beautiful smile
take my hand
let’s go together
and leave all this behind
take my heart
my mind, my soul
and let’s just go.
it’s been too long
I’ve missed You so much
where You were I don’t care
just please stay here
You are my sunshine
expelling the storm time
show me Your light—
You are my sunshine
expelling the nighttime
show me Your light—Your bright beautiful smile.
on flowers
The long stem
it brings back the specter
of our laughter
of our conversations
of our pride
of our relationship
the blue reminds me
of a summer not long ago past
the bells chime
and there are smiles all around
there’s a hum in the air
even though our feet are on the ground
it brings back memories
of us together
under the sapphire sky
when the summer’s lusty song
had lured us from
our wintry cover.
We took full bloom
showing everyone our splendid colors
the curling twining green
leads away from these
happy blues and further
becomes one with the stem.
Nearer at the top things
begin to fade, giving way
into time and the dust
of neglected memories
I try my best to nourish
this beloved flower—a sign of
my love for you—but
it’s so hard without your help
without you here by my side.
As I hold the
precious flower in my hand
I realize that it is fading
and will all too soon be gone.
I try everything to save the
precious flower but alas
it cannot be.
I sigh contently and
breathe in the delicate smell.
Once again it brings back
a mad river of rushing memories.
I surrender myself
to its mad current and
find that it has a calming effect
on my newly discovered revelations.
I rub my fingers on the stem
and begin to smile.
I have this precious flower—
something so simple and sweet—
to ever hold onto;
a beautiful reminder of our innocent love.
it brings back the specter
of our laughter
of our conversations
of our pride
of our relationship
the blue reminds me
of a summer not long ago past
the bells chime
and there are smiles all around
there’s a hum in the air
even though our feet are on the ground
it brings back memories
of us together
under the sapphire sky
when the summer’s lusty song
had lured us from
our wintry cover.
We took full bloom
showing everyone our splendid colors
the curling twining green
leads away from these
happy blues and further
becomes one with the stem.
Nearer at the top things
begin to fade, giving way
into time and the dust
of neglected memories
I try my best to nourish
this beloved flower—a sign of
my love for you—but
it’s so hard without your help
without you here by my side.
As I hold the
precious flower in my hand
I realize that it is fading
and will all too soon be gone.
I try everything to save the
precious flower but alas
it cannot be.
I sigh contently and
breathe in the delicate smell.
Once again it brings back
a mad river of rushing memories.
I surrender myself
to its mad current and
find that it has a calming effect
on my newly discovered revelations.
I rub my fingers on the stem
and begin to smile.
I have this precious flower—
something so simple and sweet—
to ever hold onto;
a beautiful reminder of our innocent love.
the heartbeat
the waves lap gently at the
shore. the evening pulses blindly as the
sun begins its descent. the moon
shines bright, eagerly awaiting
the darkness; awaiting the constellations and
the many stories that are told. in
the dying embers of the day the
water reflects in
beauty. on the horizon clouds
glower, ready to pounce on a moment’s
notice. my heart beats wildly, drawn
into the exotic scene. the cheshire
moon smiles as thunder rolls
across the glassy water.
the heavens open their jaws as
a forked tongue of lightening
tastes the space between sky and
sea. another low growl
of thunder soon follows. sultry tones of
red and orange ignite the sky
and water as the sun finally
sets. the stars begin to peep out
from behind their dark quilt of night
as the lightening strikes again. the air
is thick and warm; the darkness,
refreshing. the stars begin to sing a
quiet melody, while the moon and night loudly
harmonize. the lightening and thunder
change the key every so often.
and always heard in the background,
harmonizing with the heartbeat,
is the waves gently lapping
at the ghostly shoreline.
shore. the evening pulses blindly as the
sun begins its descent. the moon
shines bright, eagerly awaiting
the darkness; awaiting the constellations and
the many stories that are told. in
the dying embers of the day the
water reflects in
beauty. on the horizon clouds
glower, ready to pounce on a moment’s
notice. my heart beats wildly, drawn
into the exotic scene. the cheshire
moon smiles as thunder rolls
across the glassy water.
the heavens open their jaws as
a forked tongue of lightening
tastes the space between sky and
sea. another low growl
of thunder soon follows. sultry tones of
red and orange ignite the sky
and water as the sun finally
sets. the stars begin to peep out
from behind their dark quilt of night
as the lightening strikes again. the air
is thick and warm; the darkness,
refreshing. the stars begin to sing a
quiet melody, while the moon and night loudly
harmonize. the lightening and thunder
change the key every so often.
and always heard in the background,
harmonizing with the heartbeat,
is the waves gently lapping
at the ghostly shoreline.
Buona Sera
I wake up
in the morning
wanting you by my side
the waves crash
on the shore
a tear stings my eye
I think longingly about
the oppressive heat
igniting my heart
blazing wildly
for all eternity
a smile dances in my eyes
I lie down
in the moon’s fragile light
welcoming any dreams of you
the waves crash
in the darkness
I close my eyes.
Thinking of You
When I dream at night,
when I stare into space,
I always imagine
your smiling face.
I hate to say it,
to admit that it’s true,
but I terribly miss
and want for you.
I know that we share
the same blue sky,
but I would give anything
to see it in your eyes.
when I stare into space,
I always imagine
your smiling face.
I hate to say it,
to admit that it’s true,
but I terribly miss
and want for you.
I know that we share
the same blue sky,
but I would give anything
to see it in your eyes.
I left my heart in San Francisco
***to be sung to 'you are my sunshine'***
I left my heart, they say, in San Francisco.
Well, my dear, I disagree.
You see, I found you upon a hilltop and you held my heart in your hands.
I saw you walking throughout the forest, where the trees were high above.
When I saw you I went to join you, and I haven’t left you ever since.
I left my heart, they say, in San Francisco.
Well, my dear, I disagree.
You see, I found you upon a hilltop and you held my heart in your hands.
We were walking under the starlight, with each other side by side.
I closed my eyes, dear, and began to wander, and I came upon that day.
I found you standing upon that hilltop, with the sunlight pouring down.
And there you were, dear, like in a vision, and you placed my heart in my hands.
I left my heart, they say, in San Francisco.
Well, my dear, I disagree.
You see, I found you upon a hilltop and you held my heart in your hands.
eighteen inches
as i lay under the stars
the wind blows soft upon my face
my mind
floats leisurely among the stars
my heart
drifts serenely with the waves.
the moon watches
solemnly
as a ghost wanders beside me.
my heart
senses the familiarity
my mind
denies its presence
everything about it
screams reality
the warmth,
the smell,
the feel of it
entices me
everything around it
denies its existence
nothing to see,
nothing to hear,
nothing to touch,
i draw away.
a cloud
crosses the sky
hiding the stars
my heart
gallops.
the waves
crash violently
devouring the shore
my mind
steals away.
the wind
caresses
my body
smothering
the flames of desire.
the seawater
cleanses
my soul
refreshing
the liveliness of spirit.
as i lay under the stars
the wind blowing
the water spraying
i drift between
sea
and
sky.
heart
and
head.
the moon watches
silently,
waiting
for a victor.
the wind blows soft upon my face
my mind
floats leisurely among the stars
my heart
drifts serenely with the waves.
the moon watches
solemnly
as a ghost wanders beside me.
my heart
senses the familiarity
my mind
denies its presence
everything about it
screams reality
the warmth,
the smell,
the feel of it
entices me
everything around it
denies its existence
nothing to see,
nothing to hear,
nothing to touch,
i draw away.
a cloud
crosses the sky
hiding the stars
my heart
gallops.
the waves
crash violently
devouring the shore
my mind
steals away.
the wind
caresses
my body
smothering
the flames of desire.
the seawater
cleanses
my soul
refreshing
the liveliness of spirit.
as i lay under the stars
the wind blowing
the water spraying
i drift between
sea
and
sky.
heart
and
head.
the moon watches
silently,
waiting
for a victor.
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my friend, and fellow blogger now-lynn-finally convinced me to get one of these bloody things so that i could publish my poems as opposed to her publishing them on her blog....
so anyways, i suppose i'll set to work. no promise about how faithful i'll be with this thing.
ciao.
so anyways, i suppose i'll set to work. no promise about how faithful i'll be with this thing.
ciao.
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